Bullethole in the window

everyone else in the family has grown and made their own lives; I sit here and long for the past.
Now my friends are getting engaged left and right.
I’m scared.
I sit here and watch the same TV shows I watched years ago.
Here I am still watching them be young forever while I can’t be.
I’ve always put too much into TV shows to create friends out of characters I really don’t know.
Spending time living through them has allowed me to miss large portions of my life.
I’m alienating myself from my friends by never calling them, I’m becoming more of a recluse than I’ve ever been.
As soon as I turn around, I’m worried no one will be there anymore.

– For more in this series and the story behind it, see 13 years