To aspire for great heights
This sort of half smile, closed lips
last night [she] and i attempted to have a party, but she was the only one to show up.

42 days until my first chance to go home and see [her]
no matter what I do, this is not my home
i shouldn’t be here.

I stopped following my heart and let my head take over.

I’d rather a lifetime of love without marriage
without dreams I’m pretty much nothing.

-For more in this series and the story behind it, see 13 years